done and done

i have completed my first semester of my junior year of college. now i shall sleep, read books i wanna read, and watch countless movies.

it's late...can't sleep

i had coffee after 11 pm tonight. first mistake. i then tried to go to bed around 11:45. second mistake. i obviously could not sleep. soon my thoughts crept out of nowhere to torment me. i had some stupid song stuck in my head for the longest time and could not get it out. i have since forgotten it. praise 'im. i then began thinking about ultimate frisbee playoffs this weekend. throwing a frisbee around with friends is one of my favorite things to do.
im currently uploading an album onto my music blog. check it out here http://vanridesandhightides.blogspot.com/. it's by a currently defunct band called northstar. i jammed this album a lot in high school and it is still a favorite of mine. im currently listening to a song called "all i need" by a small band called Radiohead. my goodness this song puts me in the sleepy mood every time without fail. i guess thats why i chose to listen to it now because i no longer want to be conscience. as a matter of fact, this whole album is putting me to sleep. last thoughts...check out and follow me and my roommates twitter. http://www.twitter.com/thesweetlayer
also follow me personally on twitter http://twitter.com/Jaxonadams

A.A. Bondy - Oh the Vampire

With a vampire's kiss
I got a vampire's heart
Now I don't roll out of bed til after dark

See my teeth so sharp?
And my blood so still
You know I could drink the world and never get my fill

And when I come, I will come on like a dream
With the crimson moon shining down upon my devil's ring

You see it ain't my fault
That I am this way
Just a crying in my box for misty day

Lord what I would give
For just one drop of red
Now the dew is on the grass and I am late for bed

And when I come, I will come on like a dream
With the crimson moon shining down upon my devil's ring

First Train Home

What matters you, doesn't matter to me.
What matters to me, doesn't matter to you.
What matters to you, doesn't matter to them.
What matters to them, doesn't change anything.

Fast Facts and/or Opinions

Stu has herpies
Money is overrated
Family means a lot to me
Taco Bell always satisfies
Stop Rob will become famous
Justin Timberlake is a cool dude
My phone constantly frustrates me
Everything about Harry Potter rules
Facebook is more addicting than meth
New Converge album melts my face off
Poetry by Robert Frost is most enjoyable
Dying my hair is a favorite hobby of mine
Carter once attacked me with a light saber
The Outsiders is my favorite book of all time
Heima by Sigur Rós makes me cry tears of joy
Stephen King is a better author than one may think
The Sweet Layer embodies everything good in the world

No Roses, No Skies

She's a song unsung
She's the wild orchid in your ugly swamp
She's a song unsung
and the only white walls of her mind know what that song sounds like

The pills, the pills
and the Dr.'s promises just ain't doing the trick
cause the arms of nothing she falls asleep in
can still bring the razor to the wrist

The TV screens, the magazines
scream at you like the dogs of hell
advertising and advising you to be
anyone but your beautiful self

Prince Charming never brought you flowers
just loveless lifetime alone
No roses for you, just unlocked doors
and the deafening silence of your phone

So block your ears, close your eyes
remember that you're a golden soul fallen from the
boring, heartless Hollywood heard of lies that they call:

Beautiful

With no shoulder, no hand, no body, no man, no door,
no heart to let you
"The sun can take too long
to end the endless night"

I hear you, I feel you, I bleed with you
when our hearts begin to scream
"This life can feel too long"

But at night, you're dancing through the pain
even when you're the only one
no rose, no sky as full of the beauty of the girl who dies
but rises with every morning's sun:

Alone

She dances alone
alone - so beautiful
alone - her own romance
alone - Lady Lazarus' Life-Sustaining Dance

Hollow Place

I've been driving with the rear view mirror.
Who guessed it would be no clearer?
It got me lost, and now I'm late.
The clock's dead on, no one to blame but me.

Is this a bad chase dream where speed's not what it seems?
The pedal's pressed, but nothing works.
Bite your nails 'til your fingers hurt.

What now? What now boy?
What now? Who you are is not enough.

It's hard to know where we should go
When home's too far away and "here" is a hollow place
Where people come to softly hum
The songs that scare you most, believe me I'm scared enough

Bite down, 'cause everyone's looking.
Wouldn't this be the perfect bookend?
Little boy was scared at first.
Brazen once, but now he's gone astray

What now boy?

It's hard to know where we should go
When home's too far away and "here" is a hollow place
Where people come to softly hum
The songs that scare you most, believe me I'm scared enough

It stings to say it out loud

At the Bottom

i am back at school now. classes started last wednesday. that means i have homework! yay! but instead of doing homework i just read harry potter all day. i am on the 5th book and it is pretty interesting. not as interesting as the first four but this is harry potter we're talkin about...its bound to get crazy vedy vedy soon.

i now have a disneyland pass and i have gone 3 times in the past week. im already getting some quality use out of it. i had not been to d land since i was 10 years of age. it was hard remembering everything that i had once experienced there at a young age, but there were a few things that i was familiar with. pirates of the caribbean still rules. that is one thing that i can always count on...pirates being awesomely awesome. pirate tattoo in the future? yes please.

brand new's album titled "daisy" leaked onto the internet and i go my hands on it vedy quickly. they have been one of my favorite bands since freshman year of high school. every time they record an album they continue to develop musically and jesse lacey continues to be spot on lyrically. the bassist throughout the record had some groovin bass lines. the guitar work is phenomenal on this record. i cant get enough of the riffage going on here. me likey. id like to see some of these songs live in the near future.

things that make me happy:

Harley Marissa

holy springsteen and gaslight

home is where you make it

i have been at camp for 3 and a half weeks now. i get home this saturday and im and extremely excited. i miss my family very much and also my dear friends from home. however, returning home does have its downfalls. it means that school will start very shortly. i will also miss some staff members and counselors that i have met up at camp. but life goes on...

i have come to appreciate my hometown the more i am away from it. i no longer have a distaste for the county in which i was raised. there is a heritage in san juan capistrano that is like none that i have found anywhere else. orange county is looked at among other people as a wealthy county full of snobs and ignorant fools. that is not entirely true. though, every rose does have its thorns...there are some stupid people that live there but the majority love and care for each others needs. it is hard to go back to school each fall and leave those that i love back home. i hope to still live in orange county after i am done with school. it will be hard to manage but if it is in the cards then that will be much appreciated.